[ And there it is, slipping out before Kalim has the good sense to stop it. He liked it. He'd like for it to happen again. He'd like to dance Jamil out to the farthest edges of the world and kiss him deeply in every shadowed corner of it. He wants Jamil by his side, forever and in every imaginable way. He'd give Jamil the whole world, anything and everything he wants, rearrange the stars themselves at his whim, and that's never going to change.
And as far as Kalim can tell, that's the absolute opposite of what Jamil has ever wished for. He hates Kalim. He wants to be away from him, out of his shadow, free of an aide's burden. Equals, rivals, nothing more. If that's what Jamil wants, then Kalim wants that for him too.
But he trusts Jamil. Kalim has always confided in him, and old habits die hard. ]
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[ And there it is, slipping out before Kalim has the good sense to stop it. He liked it. He'd like for it to happen again. He'd like to dance Jamil out to the farthest edges of the world and kiss him deeply in every shadowed corner of it. He wants Jamil by his side, forever and in every imaginable way. He'd give Jamil the whole world, anything and everything he wants, rearrange the stars themselves at his whim, and that's never going to change.
And as far as Kalim can tell, that's the absolute opposite of what Jamil has ever wished for. He hates Kalim. He wants to be away from him, out of his shadow, free of an aide's burden. Equals, rivals, nothing more. If that's what Jamil wants, then Kalim wants that for him too.
But he trusts Jamil. Kalim has always confided in him, and old habits die hard. ]
I know I shouldn't have. I'm trying not to.